God seems to think that at the age of 21
i would like something which he has not given me-
the attention of guys/men.

well dear god.
i have lived without it for so long
and i'm pretty satisfied.
please take it back
(with the exception of the the attention of my bf...
please give me all he has)

ANYWAYS.
it's like they can see this blinking HEEEUUUGE neon sign
hovering above my head saying :
21!LEGAL IN MOST COUNTRIES

you're probably thinking
"don't be silly zyun"
nooo, i'm not being silly.
the other day as i was waiting for my bus.
this car stopped in front of me cos of the red right
and all the guys in the car poked their heads our and waved and say some stuff
i don't know what cos it was probably french and cos i was listening to my ipod.

and today in the hotel
this regular guest brought his friends back
he kept smiling at me
even the last time
i thought you know
i'm new and he's so nice prolly cos he knows i'm new
and doesn't want me to feel insecure and scared.
then he says to me
"you know we come here because of you"

i was like
*awww *nervouse laugh* thank you..."
and he said that again.
and again.
and i backed away slowly....

and there was this old african guy
with old i mean like 30 +
i'm only 21 i'm allowed to call you guys old.
anyway he said
"where're you from? you look good."
i was just like
'*nervous laugh* must be that south east asian sun... you know....'

it's so CREEPY.
it's not like your regular guy on the bus
"hey i would like to get to know you"
or your regular ah beng strolling up and saying
"eh...wanna be my stead anot?"

it's OLDER WORKING MEN.
it's out of my league.