i got my navel pierced! wooot. haha.
have been wanting to do that FOREVER. but never got around doing it cos someone convinced me that it was so unbearably painful (shaun) but after finding out that coco already did it, i got inspired to finally carry it out.

i think sometime last year coco already said she wanted to get it pierced so did i. i just didn't have the money nor guts. haha

so after finding out that she did it. i did it too. mervyn and phoebe were with me.

the pircing itself is not painful. it hurts less than getting your ears pierced. but getting the bar in was literally digging at an open wound lol. but once it was on. it didn't hurt anymore. i don't even feel it. it doesn't hurt at all.

so yay.

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Yep, happy CNY everyone~!
we had half day in school today, which reminds me of last years where i was still in 06s22 and our whole class dressed in pink with our senior class. i guess we're not such good seniors. and i'm currently in 06S23. so...

yeah. anyways went to LT5 in the morning to watch Superstar. i think that guanho should have gotten in. WTH it was so touching haha... but then i know all three groups of finalists so i can't say that i'd kick any other one of them out. alethea was so cute! haha

yeah after that we went to town to eat and play pool with stan,ryan, wenhao, "mr.chin" and aaron(track). it was super lame. but hilarious. ale joined us later. and so did ben (stan's friend) haha always laugh so hard when we're hanging out together. we're super childish. always crapping. but it's damn funny.

we found out why the equator lies near singapore. (not the other way round) haha.

yeah. met mervyn after that. which kinda completed my day. i have an awesome boyfriend. i cannot stop emphasizing on that haha. so all you emo girls out there who want him: i'm sorry but i got there first :P

haha we bought another one of those "tok-coin" things. lol. whatever i call them. and it's so cute~! it'll go to my collection.

saw a load of people in town... =.= i guess now everyone knows.

ah what the heck, i heard even the teachers in my secondary school know. the ones who didn't even teach me. crap. i don't really like people knowing. but it's not as if i'm ashamed or anything. it's normal. just... stop staring at him. lol

Gggrrr... it's annoying me so much. But sum and shubha said that i shouldn't confront anyone about it. which okay i also don't feel like doing. but it doesn't mean that i can't blog and vent so if anyone stumbles upon this. i don't give a toss.

Random: oh yeah i can finally blog. cos we finally have our internet connection thingy done and blogger stopped preveting me from upgrading and doing any blogging. so here's the UPDATE.

anyways, this is going to be a load of drama, and very childish behaviour. so don't judge me by that. haha

Pre and post Talentime.
i was damn bloody stressed during that period. cos actually we didn't really plan on joining talentime since we didn't have the time. but as it drew near ale and i thought that we'd give it a shot just for fun. if we get in fine. if not then whatever. besides Mr Ho also encouraged wester dancers to join so what the heck.

and then i found out that saumya was joining too. frankly it didn't affect me at all. everyone kept asking us to win but i didn't really have the time to care cos i was busy stressing over all my later tutorial and my german project work which is 25% of my A Level grade. The fact that my computer crashed and i lost all my research didn't help me with the stress at all. Nor did the fact that i didn't have a computer to write nor internet access. i attempted to use the school's laptop. but i could have achieved more with a piece of wood. which FYI would be lighter to carry home if it was the same size as the laptop.

during the audition our group was the only one which didn't finish the choreography. this is an understatement. we had a short dance of about 1.5 minutes.

i guess it sorta started with the whole malay dance thing. initially they were really coordinated, so ale and i started to panic about whether we could get in. in the middle of their dance, they did a dance from shinhwa which western dance did last year for aristal. and they obviously took some of their moves because we copied the whole thing (the bold is used for emphasis which would be self explainatory in a while) so obviously we would know whether they took anything. so i said osmething like "hey they copied shinhwa too" and started reminiscing about the first three months and how the moves were like. i must have been really bad at it cos they mistook it as me mocking them and laughing at their dance.

come on, i'm like 19 going on 20. the only thing i worry about is my university admission. and currently my deadlines. do you guys really think that you're that important for me to bitch about? i wasn't even thinking about you in my entire conversation during my imitation of shinhwa. not to mention that we did the dance like NUMEROUS times in school. how could you miss it.

practically the next day i hear from various friends that malay dance has "declared war" on me because i laughed at their dance, said that it sucked and said that they copied our moves or something. please. shinhwa is so not my style. it's nice. but so not my style.

besides. am i not entitled to an opinion? they joined talentime which brings them into the limelight for everyone to judge. if i didn't like their dance. then it would be my personal opinion (i didn't even think that it sucked or anything. but now i think that their attitude sux) i didn't have anyone whom i didn't like in malay dance, the only person i know from there is samantha and she was not even in talentime. so what's up with them being so uptight about it. and check your bloody facts before you assume something and base all your opinions on your assumptions.

okie the next thing was the other group. saumya was (i'm not sure for current circumstances) my friend. i admit that it was obviously my fault for saying "i'm gonna break your ankles so that we can win" the night before talentime. but it was a joke. given our previous relationship i'd thought she's understand it to be a joke. but i don't know.

the next day, she sprained her ankle during PE. and i felt terrible. i felt as if i jinxed her. which mind you. i did not. talentime is not something that i want so badly to jeopardise my friendship with others. which many of you probably won't believe. but i don't even believe in that kind of stuff. of course i realised later that maybe she did. so i apologised to her. i don't know whether she got the idea that it was an apology cos i don't think that i'm very good at it. but bottom line i did say that i was "really sorry" shubha and sum told me "you know saum, she's not that kind of person [to mind that i accidentally jinxed her]"

and yeah true enough saumya told me that "shit happens" and she's not blaming me for the thing.

i thought that the stupid misunderstanding was over. words had spread and i was (i think) the evil cursing bitch. but i didn't give a damn cos i thought that saumya was alright with it, since she told me that she was. but recently i realise that she's probably far from being alright with it.

they (saum, sum and shubha) had some sort of an awkward period. which i think is all my fault for starting with the ankle thing in the first place. but what i find annoying is that, is it really such a big deal that i cracked a (i admit) distastefully bad joke in public and the IP blames me for it even after like 2 weeks? wait, i don't even care about the IPs. except for my friends of course who are still nice to me. but saumya. i really want to know what she's angry at if she still is.

if she's still angry then why won't she just confront me about it and clear things up. were we such lousy friends that we can't even settle these kind of problems to begin with? because if it is still the ankle thing then i am still apologising. because it is my fault. although i do think it's stupid to blame me for something like that. but i don't know it could be her belief and i would respect that.

what sort of pisses me off is that she doesn't have enough faith in me, as a friend or former one to trust that there is that tiny chance where i didn't even mean or do, what the rumours i heard, said that i did.

but i don't know. maybe something happened throughout the whole period before talentime. i wasn't taking note because i was busy redoing my german kursarbeit. and we only managed to finish the dance on the day of talentime. talk about stress.



other than that i'm truly thankful for all my friends who have been sticking up for me, and causing themselves to be "shunned" as well. haha i love you guys: sum, shubs, sam eng, phoebs. I LOVE YOU GUYS~!!!

and my dancer friends. all from WD. they may think that we're political. but being in the center of it. i don't see any politics going about. and it's not as if we can control how many people are allowed in a competition. obviously we'll take the best. it's called competition. which every CCA should have. and stan: THANX FOR THE BUN BUN BOOKMARK!

all my mainstream friends: i love you guys. you make my life in NJ bearable.

all my IP friends: haha no i'm not gonna lump you with the others haha. although most of you are probably from dance. if not all. but i do treasure you guys too.

to my lovely boyfriend: you have an outcast girlfriend haha. and obviously you are so much better with socialising. i told you i'm anti-social. and that's cos i'm so bad at it. thanx for listening to me whine all the time. being there for me all the time. taking care of me all the time. accepting me for who i am all the time. and just being who you are. i love you.

to char: i'm sorry your present is still with me. i love you as a friend, you're my bestest bestie. i could kiss you. but i won't. we'll hang out more once my As are over. and we'll be besties all the time. until we're old. and then we'll count each other's wrinkles. until then, you may hang out with sean.

to karen and jing xian: okay so we don't hang out all the time anymore. but he other day was great. reminded me of old time. and also reminded me how rumours can totally fabricate crap haha. let's go out more often.