i dunno.

i feel perfectly fine. i guess until bout 5 mins ago. then my ego just... took a holiday in hawaii. i dunno. then on tope of that u get all the piled up stuff coming back as well. especially when promos are like 3 days away.

can i take this as an ecuse to be a complete bitch to everyone?

i dunno i dunno i dunno

i just feel so...
ＩDUNNO~!!!

it was like "oooh i AM living in my own pink world"

and then "this isn't pink... it's orange" or something.
yeah i'm not making any sense.

but then it's just like. what happened.

and what happened?

i dunno.

i hate you for what you did
i want to hate you without feeling guilty about it
i hope i remind you of her.
i want you to feel guilty about it for thje rest of your life.
i don't want to forgive you.
i don't want to accept it.
i hope that if i died u'll remember this.




it was dead embarrassing to turn up at KAP where all the NJ ppl mug with my run eyeliner and then in front of stan and wenhao. but thanx guys.

Went out with my sweet/cool/hot/(insert good thing) boyfriend today. After waiting for what seemed like eternity, I finally got to see him again (= So we went to Taka to get his t-shirts, and then to Far East to print them. He's sucha sweet brother cus he's making a cute t-shirt for his younger brother whose birthday is tomorrow.

So while waiting for the shirts to finish printing, we had lunch at Long john's and then Mervyn's fun friends, Dong, Nicola and Gordon, came along. Went to collect the shirt and then played pool together. Poor Mervyn lost to Dong so many times. But he managed to beat Dong once. Mervyn is awesome awesome :D

Gordon and Nic left halfway after pool and then Dong, boyfriend and I went walking round town. Went to Heeren, and then to Cine. We saw some idiot guy rolling on the floor =.= there, I used that face again. Then Dong went to meet his mom for dinner, and Mervyn and I went for dinner at Taka.

I was being a bad girl 'cus I didn't wanna eat but luckily my boyfriend was so caring and sweet and everything good you can think of that he made sure I ate something so that my gastric doesn't come. I <3 my boyfriend (=

After dinner, we went to the skate park where Mervyn and I had long, meaningful chats about random stuff and I haven't had so much fun in sucha long time.

My boyfriend is the awesomest <3




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the gp paper killed me this morning. my gp sux. and why is that not a surprise? huh why? because i've been busy learning that not wanting to get married when you're rich and successful is sick.

Hi I'm Zhang Yun but I call myself Zyun 'cus it's shorter. Some of my friends call me Zhang. I think my boyfriend's pretty darn cool and clever and stuff. I like it when he calls me and I get sad if he doesn't talk to me. I'm a pretty girl and I'm random. Like tokens and fish-sticks kind of random.

I can't wait for Friday to arrive because that's when I get to go out with him again. It's been a long time since we went out and I miss him a lot a lot. And I when I talk online I like to used dots like …… and I also like to give this face =.= it's my favorite face because it looks as cute as me.

WALALALALALALA POW! See I told you I was random. My boyfriend's not as random as me. I'M HOT AND SEXY!~ Everybody should whistle whenever I walk past them because I'm hot and sexy. I love bunnies 'cus they are cuuute ^.^

I think Mervyn’s the awesomest <3


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haha shaun is funny.

i nosebled on the bus this morning. so it's not that Rv is cursed/ and hey this is really becoming an annual thing.

it's sorta weird. my voice is kinda back. not exactly. it's very iritating.

i'm so screwed for promos.

i dunno.

i feels so stoned right now.

look at merv's blog. i was reminded of the stupid tings that char and i used to do in RV. see i keep this notebook every year. and in rv i used it to keep track of everyday. like a diary. except that instead of insightful observations and reflections it was filled with CRAP.

see char and i used to write stupid letters to eac other. even though we were in the same school. i still have a bunch of them.

char always hoped that i'll hook up with her cousin. and she tried to convince herself that it was true. by cutting out pictures of a korean actor who looks like her cousin and then claiming that that arm was mine.


at other times she just annoys me by writing a bunch of weird letters from a guy with a weird name.

and leaving me with terrible mental images. FYI: this is not that last one of this series. it is followed by 2 more "poems which hardly rhyme" and one "song".


i had a page on my notebook where everyone who passed by my table would write something random.


weird drawings by char.


i wonder when i started hating chinese so much...


oh... that's when...

i guess i'm just the type of person who doesn't... well, forgive easily.

actually. that's not entirely true. it kinda depends. i have disappointments i guess. there are still a couple of people who are currently very low on my opinion list. and they don't even realise it.

i don't hate them. or dislike them a lot. i just don't trust them as much as i used to. i guess they're just not dependable. i think i feel like that because they have proven to me that they don't give a damn about what they told me. they just want to do what they want at that point of time. it doesn't matter whether i have kept my time free for them. or that i'll be stranded somewhere on my own. cos they just have last minute things that are more important. like sleep.

well i don't need your promises. i just need the truth.

my boyfriend forces me to blog. whose boyfriend forces them to blog? well the lecherous bfs would force their gfs to...erm.. nvm... but BLOG?

i have nothing to blog about. nothing. what do you expect me to write? about how sitting here, converting oxygen to carbon dioxide is fun? i.really.have.nothing.

my life is boring. really it is. if its not about mugging. then it's about catcing up with tutorials. actually most of the time i just sit in front of my PC and stone.

or i go to town with my friends and stone. haha now i understand wy edwin keeps doing that.

ok then for the sake of blogging. i shall talk about my numerous phobias. well not exactly phobias. more like creepy stuff.

ok see horror flicks. i used to watch them and pretend that i wasn't scared. i dunno. when i was younger i pretended i wasn't scared of everything that i'm scared of right now. until one day i realised that i was torturing myself by watching them. i mean why watch them when it'll cause me to loose sleep for like months? just stop watching la. so i stopped.

and sea creatures. for some reason. my parents love the underwater world in sentosa. they always make us all go there. the place really creeps me out man. and i have to pretend that it doesn't. but seriously, those freaking octopus things are like heeeuge. what if the glass breaks? it's sooo gross. and they ave freaky eyes. i call them dead eyes. they look the same no matter whether the fish is alive or not. and see wat happened to steve irwin? now it creeps me out more. u don't know what's in the blardy ocean. you don't now what might come up and drag you down. i it's a lion i might still ave the 1% chance of survival by clubbing it to death with my chunky shoe or strangling it with my bra strap. but once that bloody gross thing drags u into the water. you'll DIE.

yeah... mom's leaving the house right now to fetch my sis from the airport and my dad is overseas, so i'm home alone. my new tutor is coming at around 7. i don't even know his name or anything. but mom thinks that i sould leave the door open once he's here so that if anything happens he can scream bloody murder.

hey blog.
i sorta have this boyfriend person now. still dunno why i do. but i guess it's just like that.

he's really weird you know. he does weird stuff. he says weird things. and he behaves in a weird way. but then. he's nice, which is weird cos usually nice people freak me out, but i'm not freaked or ne thing now. he's also reallty cool. all my nj friends are in love with him. and i have no idea why. i don't think that he bribed anyone of them with money...

he's really sweet too. he always accompanies me when i mug in town, even though it's dead boring to watch me mug.

he always wears really cool t shirts that sum wants to steal. and he lets me sms him first, which is cool cos i like sending smses first. and he always replies.

he thinks that i'm pretty even though i look like crap. yep. and he always likes me even when i'm grouchy and mean.

i like his shampoo. it smells really nice. i like shopping with him too.

he bought me a pretty crown ring. yep.





anyways. bout today... had this Rv anniversry thing. was supposed to meet chenzhuo, yifeng and sijie in town at 5. then they changed it to 530pm. but in the end they came only at 6. =.= thankfully L^3 accompanied me until they came. "it's great to have a friend who lives in town" quoting from him. lol
so after they came... we took... NEOPRINTS. haha so old already still like to play. lol. nvm. they're pretty... the background is actually sparkly. but there is only so much that scanners can do.


yeah after that rushed to have dinner at the raffles convention centre. it was dead boring. cos since you had to pay so much to get there, like almost no other students went. only 3 more girls other than the netballers from our batch went. and let's face it, the whole thing was rather boring.

maybe nostalgic for the older folks since they hav not seen each other for like decades. but for us? we see each other in school all the time. most of us are in the same school. if not. the last time we met was only like not even a year ago. so yeah. but anyways, here's a picture of everyone taken by the professional photographer. it's actually a very nice photo. everyone looking pretty and me grinning like a dork.

and i know that i'm flat chested. BELAGHRWarhwoiae.... haha